2009 broke me down in ways i never thought could happen. I cried tears i didnt have this past year as life as i knew it turned upside down and my heart collapsed under the pressure. I took so many punches this past year that i lost count, im tired of taking losses, but not this year that approaches. I cant survive another year that 2009 was. I'll never turn my back on my people, but i cant save a whole nation, I gotta save me. Those that i loved, turned their backs on me when I needed them the most. This past year stole my desire for life away from me, to where now I have reached the point to where I only desire power in my life. Power of wealth, but most importantly the power in Christ. There's only to things certain in life, pain and death, and through my pain im going to strive for the best. I have separated myself from the attention seeking, popularity hungry slut of an existence of the world. I used to break my back to make people feel the love in my heart, and they still dont love me. The more I love them, the more i hate myself, people make you lose yourself to gain a stingy piece of them. Im the story of the loner with the heart of gold, but looked at as tarnished. They see anger on the outside because inside I be paining. But i dried my eyes and life goes on. Hello 2010, will you hug me or stab me; embrace or erase me? Either way, I own you and not the other way around.
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